Saturday, May 11, 2013

Freak-out

11.5.2013 Sunny day

Woke up at 7.10am. That's early. Even though I wake up at around the timeframe on weekdays. Yea went to Subang, and Face Book cafe was my destination. Called one of my friend out to further discuss our so call "plan". Everything was getting worst and messy no thanks to both the organisers who failed to come with a firm decision (laugh guilty-ly ><).

My friend described today as an adventure journey full of unexpected obstacles. I agreed. And I feel so sorry. Hehe, bought a voucher with cheaper price but in fact spent more than that zzzz. Sunburn sunburn and sunburn+4 foreigners kept following us (perhaps we think too much but we must have awareness right?)

Then, we blamed these to the two bros who supposed to be the main character in the gathering tonight, when we found out that they had actually cancelled the plan and replaced by their programme. We was like: what the hell are we doing in the whole day? That's... I mean that's so sudden and I cannot accept it at that moment. Haha sorry as I'm emotional,yea pretty emotional ><. I'm not blaming anyone but myself. It seems like I have no mature thinking enough yet I thought I have it already lol sampat girl sampat thinking. We did this mistake due to improper communication mainly. Once again communication is vital and essential in our daily live. Opps, sounds like writing an essay in STP suddenly ><

Anyway, I hope that one day I will have the capability. I am not alone. I have you, you and you, friends :) It may influence my emotion as well today but not our friendship. Wink*

Thursday, May 9, 2013

纳闷

炎热的下午2时17分,热得发慌.

坐在嘛嘛档,我依然无法融入于这喧哗的嘈杂声之中. 唉,好想用蜘蛛网来形容此刻的思绪.

5月5,大选到了,朋友生日也到了. 因为大选,所以暂时忽略了它. 拖啊拖,至今未有明确的下文.

很想说声对不起,我没有能力给你很大惊喜.
很想说声对不起,我没本事搞个大礼物逗你开心.
很想叹个大气,我怎么那么小题大做.
很想说我是真的尽力,尽力为你这朋友做些事情.

世间变化无常,连小事也要如此耍赖.

突然觉得我的英文超级落后,人家说的beh pakai.
突然害怕,害怕我的恐惧搞砸了机会..

Saturday, March 16, 2013

杂巴朗XD

今天好像有满肚子的话想说 :) 当然要来一首歌伴着我 嘻嘻 XP 我是喜欢音乐的 peace* ^^
不过说真的,我还只是听歌没看MV ><

中六高级文凭(STPM) 成绩下星期一就要揭晓了 /.\ 心情7上8下,忐忑不安,心跳加速,呼吸困难,很想大哭。。。种种杂八狼的感觉再次浮现!!哈哈我承认我很多心,可是没有一次可以让我放心 /.\ 担心很多事:
担心成绩烂怎么办? :( 成绩烂就真的很对不起自己,花了2年光阴在dull的form6里 /.\ (虽然有快乐,但成绩烂的时候哪会想这些来安慰自己><) 进不了本地大学怎么办?只好进私人大学,可是可是可是很贵 >< 我不喜欢这样啦~~~~~~~~~~ 我喜欢免费的东西,TERTIARY EDUCATION这样“东西”也可以就好,ngek ngek xPP
当然,还有一个就是担心成绩好可是进不到 >< 最pek cek最想挥拳打人的感觉 lol....



加新加新加新 ^^ 呼~时隔这么久,终于可以刷新一下下,虽然皮肤是处于不好的状态 ><"

曾经有人这么说:你的照片......怎么photoshop到这样够力.....................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................当时很多乌鸦飞过,然后就发现很多只箭刺进我的心脏 lol
想说,不好意思,我也不想的 T.T 如果有的选,谁愿意把自己的照片放进美化软件,再用许许多多的毛笔什么之类的在自己的脸上尽情地挥毫叻? lol...
but这是很久很久很久的事了,大概是7年前 :P  哈哈可见本小姐有多记仇 peace*


曾经,我认为这张照片很好看 :P 现在,我笑了><

顺便一提,最近某某人问了我一个问题:如果你只有一个愿望,你会怎么许?许什么?想清楚...
从他的讯息中,可见他觉得这个问题很棘手 XP 不好意思纯粹个人意见啦 :) Hmm.. 你又会怎么许叻? 好想听听你的答案再来深思 呵呵  那我就在这里回答吧  如果只给我一个愿望,我希望。。。。
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我希望从现在开始我希望的都可以成真! ^~^ peace* 是不是很厉害? lol 幼稚心又发作了



于11.57pm搁笔
燕<3

Friday, March 8, 2013

Kim Jaejoong-I'll protect you

最近,爱上了这首歌。

我想恋爱了.. 怎么办? 每次看这部韩剧在加上这首插曲真的会让人疯掉,让我有了想被人疼的憧憬.. 旋律+故事+幻想+情感.. 一切一切的结合,让我也发白日梦想像女主角这样.. 哦这该死的头脑><

是单身太久吗?还是安奈不住孤单的心情?(这样讲好像很变态><)还是..还是看到别人都双双对对自己也想要??尝试说出一大堆理由><  惨了,心很乱了...

伤心的时候,这首歌也列入我的排行榜第一名,呵呵。果真我没爱错,一首歌掺杂着许多情感,只是看你用怎么样的心情,完完整整地诠释这首歌的情景。大爱啦!!!!

你也来听听看:)

Monday, October 1, 2012

Will you still be there?

Whatsapp used to be my favourite application throughout my upper six moment..

I have my moments with you x)
We shared happiness..
We shared sadness..
We shared musics..
We shared videos..
We found similarities there..
We argued our opinions there..
We miss each other there..
Everything starts there... x)

Yet, i closed it temporarily for some reasons..
And this is the time you remind me that we are not suppose to continue what was happening..
Its my second time to hear such thing from you..
Hahas.. i know that
Yea.. i really know that..
Hahas.. x(

Its hurt to look back those histories in whatsapp..
Our precious moments together..
but will you still be there for me?
Will you online still just for me?
Will you send goodnight still everyday?
i hope you will, eventhough you wont.. zzzzz so stupiak...

Yea, will you still be there, for me?? x')

stpm!

phew.. just finish my trial exam for stpm..
Most of the people thought that stpm is toughest examination in Malaysia, probably.
And i give it a Yes, undoubtedly..
its tough x(
its tough x(
and, its tough x(
wondering how i can achieve my plan to get  a place in local U x(
sad.. no time for me, no life for me...
perhaps 2012 is not my lucky year..
everything get STUCK!!!!

hahas.. still need to face it with an indifferent smile x)




Thursday, February 9, 2012

heartbreak =')

Are you feel suffer along the relationship goes on???


Dear~ I dont want to accept your excuse ='(
Why you choose to go your own way and leave me now????

Am I not good?
Yea i know im not as excellent as u thought.
But, im willing to change now,
i gain lessons..
i should satisfy and thankful for your sacrifice..
but now you choose to leave me..
i really cannot accept ;'( 

dear~ i love u.. i do love u. i really love u..
but why??
u didnt love me anymore???
i not worth for u anymore?
.........

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

refreshXD

I'm not an excellent girl for you,maybe.

Honestly, I do proud towards my academic result, although you may not think so.
I know my English is totally awful, as I couldn't even write an essay well.
I can communicate, but not as smooth as you in between our conversation.
Sorry but I'm not trying to show off or something,
it just, the only thing that i have and i can, to bring out myself.

I'm not a good girl.
I'm stubborn, when you ignored me.
I'm dissapointed, when you're not stick to your promise.
I'm angry, when I realized that you argue with me even if just a small matter.

What a lousy girlfriend.
A mentally sensitive, and stubborn girlfriend.
Ha, maybe this is your first time to get into relationship.
This is not an excuse mr.

I'm getting lost right now.
Am I still worth for you?
Am I still exist for you?
Can you guide me to the original way we stepped?
This is totally freak out!

Sorry but i have no confident in myself.. =')

Regards

Friday, June 10, 2011

10.6.2011

Please allow me to release my miss to you here.
You're an unforgetable memory, as you had stepped into my heart.
Suddenly.

I was childish. Simple minded made me thought you were pass-tensed,
or even will not appear in my beautiful dream anymore.
God tell me this is wrong.
You still exist deep in my heart, or
maybe you didnt even leave my heart ever.
No, not you. But just shadow...


You poped out and chat with me in facebook yesterday.
Wow, such surprise.
The thing that had changed is, we're back to friends.


Say it true,
do you miss me, still???

Thursday, April 28, 2011

It has been a long time that i didnt even step up to my bloggie~
Do you miss me? :)

I have no time.
This excuse has been used along this four months.
Actually,
do anybody need a hug??
I feel so. And I need it~


Many incidents occur even ACCIDENTLY pass 2 week, included, i'm in love.




Yea, i'm in love. Is it weird??
or..
it just happened suddenly??

ya, very unexpected.
But why??
Why just left me alone after that?
Why just.. break up?
Why is it alot of things come together?
I'm not a superwoman,
I'm not so strong.
I'm not a cold-blooded woman,
I couldn't be calmed every time..




I just cannot accept :'(


Yea.. u're right.
We're not suit both.
But if i say i'm willing to change our relationship back to friends..

I'm sorry.
I cannot make it right now.

You are a pass byer,
you are a part of my life now.
How could I just tear off a part of my heart without any tears any pain?

I'm in love.
And,
i'm not in love.


Suddenly,
just suddenly....